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As quick as he came, he's gone again. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad the bloodsucker's gone. But I don't get to enjoy it because every time he leaves I have to look at her face again. And I see just how... It makes me think of when he left her the first time. None of the Cullens ever saw her like I saw her. They can say all they want, but they're the ones that always hurt her. He left her ALONE IN THE FUCKING FOREST for God's sake. He's lucky Sam was able to find her. She was just a big VOID until I came around and kept her company. THAT is why I'm better for her. Because I don't play games like that. And I don't come with any life or death choices or vampire mafias or any of that.

Yeah, whatever. The castle brought him and took him away, not his fault. But that doesn't change the fact that she's hurting again because of him.

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[ After letting out his frustrations, Jake throws his pen and huffs loudly. Then, he turns to Bella, tugging on her hand a bit. ]

C'mon. We're getting some fresh air.

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Casanova, huh? I take it this earns me a few points. [ he tugs her into him ]

[ whoa. after all those dirty thoughts before, she's blushing full force again, not meeting his gaze ]

You need to earn points with me, at this point?

Not really, but it's nice to rack them up and save them for a rainy day. [ he rests his head upon hers ]

[ she hesitates, and then reaches up to rest her palm against his cheek ]

And how often have I been unhappy with you? Once or twice, and it lasts a whole five minutes, usually.

Since we've been here.

[ he... didn't mean for that to slip out, really. ]

And I'm glad for that. It's weird. Things seems so much... simpler here.

[ she blinks and drops her hand, looking at him strangely for a few moments ]

Well... I was being stupid over that loss, wasn't I? Jealous. [ she makes a face ]

It does. Uncomplicated.

Y'know, I actually don't mind. It's kind of nice to know you were jealous. Not that I meant for you to be, but... Kinda feels good to know you care that much.

I know I moaned and groaned about being here, especially because of what this place took from me, but... [ squeezes her hand ] right now I have no complaints.

[ serious face now; she looks away, avoiding his gaze. ]

I can't tell you how much it actually bothered me. I felt pretty stupid. You're like... [ she huffs a little in frustration at herself as she searches for the right words, finally forcing herself to look up at him ]

It's not fair to you, but you're mine and I didn't really like having to share you, loss or not. And it's horrible and selfish of me, but I can't... help it.

[ he's stunned. this is the first time he's ever heard her refer to him like that. he's only ever heard her call Edward hers, but hearing that word... "mine"... ]

I don't mind being yours. At all. You can have me! [ a slightly nervous/flustered/excited/woah kind of chuckle ]

[ she's surprised, too, looking back at him a little incredulously ]

Wha-- I mean. You're... really?

Really.

But I... you don't think that's unfair to you? After everything I've put you through?

I'm not going to lie, sometimes it was really hard. But how many times do I have to tell you that you're worth it? I mean, just being with you right now is worth it all.

I'm not good enough for you. You know that? You're so wonderful. You've never, ever left me or bossed me around or just... [ she shakes her head, at a loss for words ]

'Cause I love you, Bells. I really do.

Thank you. I mean. I...

Well, you know I love you, too. So much.

[ he wants to kiss her, but doesn't know how she'll react to soon after Edward's departure. and he remembered she told him the kissing needed to stop. instead of kissing her lips, he kisses the top of her head. ]

[ she's a little disappointed, if she's honest with herself, but she leans into him, reaching up with her free hand to run her fingers through his hair, smiling softly. it's fairly obvious how she feels about him in her eyes, however ]

[ ...he really wants to. maybe asking is okay. ]

Um, can I... [ he's cupped her face in his hand, this thumb touching upon her lips ]

[ she shivers a little at that gentle touch, keeping her eyes locked on his as she nods wordlessly, her gaze hovering between his lips and his eyes ]

[ he'll take that as a yes, and he kisses her gently. long, but gently. ]

[ she sighs into his mouth; it's obvious she wanted this, her fingers on her free hand slipping up to hold the back of his neck gently as she returns his kiss, losing herself in him ]

[ somehow, and he really doesn't know how, the kisses are better and better than before. he can sense it. he can feel it. he knows that she is kissing him not out of pity or sadness, but because she wants to. and it leaves him almost euphoric. he clutches the sleeve of her shirt a little urgently, pulling her closer, and wanting her closer even more. ]

[ being this close to him is wonderful and she lets out a soft, happy hum against his lips, her hand moving to hold his jaw beneath her palm. she needs to breathe though, and she pulls back just enough to murmur his name softly, rubbing her nose against his ]

[ it's clear that he can have more of this later, and the offer isn't going to go anywhere. he pecks her lips once more before returning a hand to the steering wheel ]

Anywhere else you wanna go now that we've found the perfect make-out spot?

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