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As quick as he came, he's gone again. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad the bloodsucker's gone. But I don't get to enjoy it because every time he leaves I have to look at her face again. And I see just how... It makes me think of when he left her the first time. None of the Cullens ever saw her like I saw her. They can say all they want, but they're the ones that always hurt her. He left her ALONE IN THE FUCKING FOREST for God's sake. He's lucky Sam was able to find her. She was just a big VOID until I came around and kept her company. THAT is why I'm better for her. Because I don't play games like that. And I don't come with any life or death choices or vampire mafias or any of that.

Yeah, whatever. The castle brought him and took him away, not his fault. But that doesn't change the fact that she's hurting again because of him.

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[ After letting out his frustrations, Jake throws his pen and huffs loudly. Then, he turns to Bella, tugging on her hand a bit. ]

C'mon. We're getting some fresh air.

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You are-- [ shudder ] --how is this going to work partially one-handed, anyways?

Same as everything else. [ he kisses his way upward ] We just play it by ear.

[ that whole being way warmer than the average human sure comes in handy during times like this; she closes her eyes against the heat of his kisses ]

You can't-- ah. Rip me like you ripped my clothes, though.

[ he actually laughs at that, and looks up at her ]

Hey, I was gentle before, wasn't I?

You were. You always are. [ she smiles up at him sweetly, and then a mischievous, bold expression lights up her face. She braces herself, lifting both her legs to wrap around his waist, using all her weight to roll them over--

--and off the bed. ]

[ he hits the ground with a loud OOF! followed by uncontrollable laughter. he rolls onto his back, laughing to the point where he literally cannot breathe and his face turns beet red. he finally manages a gasp of breath ]

What the heck was that!

[ oh my god. she wants to die. please. right there. she can't even escape because she's still attached to him, and not to mention, not wearing a shirt. the best she can do is scramble up a little, despite her sore knees and even more sore pride, turning her face away from him and scowling at the wall ]

N-nothing! Obviously! I was trying to get o-on.. top.

[ sorry, Bella, but he's still laughing! he really tries to regain his composure, but in the meantime he reaches up and pulls her back onto him, hugging her to his body ]

[ she grooooans, covering her face with her hand, the rest of it hiding against his chest. really, stuff like this only ever happens to her ]

Shut up already, Jacob Black.

I-I'm... I'm sorry, I'm sorry. [ he takes a few deep breaths to calm himself down ]

Don't look like that, either. You have no reason to be embarrassed in front of me of all people. [ he tucks her hair behind her ear ]

...I just rolled us off the bed, I think being embarrassed is a prerequisite.

[ she winces, but is a little soothed by the simple gesture of him tucking her hair back ]

[ he just smiles at her ]

We can do this another time if you want.

[ she looks surprised. hesitating for a moment, she reaches up to touch his cheek ]

You're so sweet. I don't deserve you, really. [ she leans in now, kissing him softly, but passionately ]

[ he simply places his hand on her, kissing her in return and giving her the reigns. she wanted to top, after all, and he'll go along with whatever she decides. ]

[ she smiles into the kiss, breaking away and giving him a playful look as she clambers to her feet, pulling him up with her. she looks towards the bed, then back to his face, raising her eyebrows. somehow, even after embarrassing herself terribly, he manages to make her feel comfortable ]

Tell me this is what you want, first.

This.

[ he pulls her closely with his free hand, resting his head atop hers ]

Is what I've always wanted.

[ that's all she needed to hear. she'd never question the honesty in his voice and she smiles as he holds her, closing her eyes for a moment and savoring it. ]

Well then.

[ she backs up, placing her palm on the center of his chest and pushing him backwards onto the bed, tumbling down after him, straddling his waist ]

[ he is taken completely by surprise by this girl who is incredibly sultry and totally hot and he can't believe it's Bella but it totally is. his heart just about leaps out of his chest once she's on top of him, and he swallows hard. ]

[ she's grinning now, lifting both pairs of their hands and pressing them above his head as she leans down, her hair falling around her face as she looks at him, searching his face. she's still a little scared of this, but something else is overpowering that. it's probably the look on jacob's face. ]

Am I doing okay here?

[ he did not know she had this in her. he is pleased. he manages a nod. now who is the nervous one here? ]

[ she giggles a little. this is way too fun. ]

Did you clock your head when I knocked you over, there, pal?

[ she says as she lets go of the hand she still has free reign over, running down his side and slipping it up beneath his shirt ]

[ he thinks about it, then shakes his head, the feel of her cool hand on his side causing even him to shiver. he smiles a wide grin, obviously pleased ]

I think... you're leaving me speechless for once.

I like it. Though... I'm still gonna need your help with um. [ she gestures to herself ] this. And your shirt.

Allow me.

[ he removes his own shirt in the same fashion before reaching up and pulling Bella into him. it is everything the first time was and more. he's more sure of himself, and more sure of Bella. he knows that this is what they both want, and it makes it all the better.

nothing matters but this moment; not Paradisa, not the Cullens, just him and Bella as it always should have been. ]

((ooc: and fade to black © smeyer))

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