paradisalost | (no subject)

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Loneliness.

Somehow it is difficult to sleep when I have thoughts like that. I wonder why, even if it is supposed to be for a little while.
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[filter; Nine]
Nine. I'm sorry that I wasn't able to play in the lake with you. That must have hurt your feelings. So, I wanted to make it up to you. But it has grown late again, I see. I'm a little saddened that I only realize these things at night. You really can't swim in the dark. I do not know the fun in that. Isn't the fun that you can see yourself swimming? Though, that doesn't sound fun either, I suppose that I'll have to experience it for myself to see.

Still, because it is late, I thought I could braid your hair, only I realized after I thought this that I cannot, because – it's not that you're bald only that it is too short. So do not worry about something like that. I thought after that about taking you out to dinner, but that sounds like a date, and I do not wish to date you or another. It is not you really, though, it might be your sad personality. Though, I do not mind it, honest. Watching a movie together is the same results. Even if it is friends, it should be more friends, but I wish to focus on your happiness, because I was mostly worried about you.

It seems to cheapen the experience if I bring others that are equally unhappy, I mean, doesn't that mean that I am not giving individual attention. That being written, I wonder if you had any ideas of what we could do for fun to cheer you up? We'll be sure to do them right away.
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[filter; Five]
Is Fa The Master all right? I was told once that when someone was mad that you should give them time to not be angry anymore. I do not wish to ruin any good mood that he is in by talking to him when he does not wish to see me. It is painful to do, but I understand that I deserve not to be near someone who is so kind to me and I betrayed. It's more painful for the other person, isn't it?

Still, so long that I know that he is happy by his entries, I feel a little better. ♥
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I am a little troubled by some thoughts.

One normally drinks during times such as these, right?

Sometimes you can't afford to sleep. Too dangerous or just too much to be done.

I see. I have problems waking up in the morning. This is mostly attributed to the fact that I was allowed to "sleep" for days at a time.

Yes. It is mostly because it was an induced sleep, so my body is simply used to it.

My grandfather and the scientists. I really do not know, they merely did not wish for me to be awake so often.

Didn't mean scientists in general were creepy. They're mostly boring. Just the situation sounded that way.