http://oyaji.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] oyaji.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] paradisalost2011-12-26 03:38 pm

zettai unmei mokushiroku

Who: [Bad username or site: oyaji title= @ livejournal.com] & [Bad username or site: concerns title= @ livejournal.com]
What: stuff.
When: x-maz eve
Where: effeel tower
Rating: PG

[ Up on the first level of the Eiffel Tower is Kotetsu wheezing after walking up over three hundred sets of stairs in the freezing cold. He's huddling close to his partner before shivering and wheezin' at the same time. ]

Y-You'd better soak up this sight, Bunny! Because there isn't a-any other way you're getting me back up these stairs again!! Paris or Eiffel Tower be damned.

[identity profile] concerns.livejournal.com 2011-12-30 06:05 am (UTC)(link)
[sniffling because overwhelming emotions and it's coooold. even more blush pups as he refuses to look koteters in the eyes]

I... I've n-never been in love, so I'm not sure if what I feel is actually... all I know is that I have feelings for you.

[identity profile] concerns.livejournal.com 2011-12-30 06:12 am (UTC)(link)
[taking a few deep breaths before finally looking at him, not saying a word]

[identity profile] concerns.livejournal.com 2011-12-30 06:42 am (UTC)(link)
[his eyes widen and he shakes his head]

N-no, Kotetsu I couldn't! I could never--! [looking down and try to catch sight of Kotetsu's hand with his wedding band] I could never ask of such a thing! Please understand, about your wife... I promise that my feelings will never affect hers, or yours toward her in any way.

[identity profile] concerns.livejournal.com 2011-12-30 06:50 am (UTC)(link)
[deflating like the saddest balloon]

I'm sorry... this is why I didn't wish to say anything. I didn't want to burden you with having to deal with any of this.

SURPRISE DOUBLE OOPS

[identity profile] concerns.livejournal.com 2011-12-30 06:52 am (UTC)(link)
[--wait a second.

"I love you both the same."
]

...

[identity profile] concerns.livejournal.com 2011-12-30 06:55 am (UTC)(link)
[opens his mouth but doesn't say anything because he's trying to figure out what that one sentence means]

Kotetsu?

[identity profile] concerns.livejournal.com 2011-12-30 07:00 am (UTC)(link)
No, it isn't another apology.

Everything is fine? After all I've said, and how I feel, you and I... it's fine?

[identity profile] concerns.livejournal.com 2011-12-30 07:10 am (UTC)(link)
I... yes, but... if I could certainly say that I-- that I loved you, it would be fine?

[identity profile] concerns.livejournal.com 2011-12-30 07:58 am (UTC)(link)
[take your time oyaji. not like borna's been rotting away a little emotional piece at a time since this love confession thing started]

[identity profile] concerns.livejournal.com 2011-12-30 08:16 am (UTC)(link)
[watching all of this carefully, not sure if he should say anything while kotetsu looks so contemplative and obviously conflicted. however it almost looks like he's forcing himself to try and come to an answer and that's not what barnaby wants.

reaching out, he hesitantly tries to take a hold of kotetsu's hand
]

Kotetsu. If you can't answer this now then please don't say anything. I would prefer for you to take the time to be honest with yourself than to come to a rushed conclusion and only regret what you say later.

My feelings won't change, but I wouldn't force them to affect yours in a way that you believe I want.

[identity profile] concerns.livejournal.com 2011-12-30 08:36 am (UTC)(link)
[but i gotta let it goooo. standing there and nodding as he takes in everything kotetsu's said. to be honest he's more than okay with not having any type of answer. most people would probably prefer to have a yes over anything else but he couldn't possibly be that selfish, especially considering kotetsu's wife and his obvious feelings that remain for her.

no, this is good enough. it's not a yes, but most importantly of all, it isn't a no
]

It does, yes.

[identity profile] concerns.livejournal.com 2011-12-30 08:42 am (UTC)(link)
[hugging back immediately just as tightly. his hands start to shake a little but he stops that by gripping at kotetsu's clothing, trying his hardest not to cry for what feels like the 10th time that night]

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