oo8 → while my guitar gently weeps

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

private;

Over and over again... 

I just keep on hurting him. I'm so stupid, so pathetic. No matter how hard I try, I keep on repeating the same mistake. Alice, Gil, Break... I hurt them all. Maybe, just maybe, my existence is a sin. Just by existing, I scar people. It's my fault he has that scar... if only I'd struck a little earlier, Gil's chest wouldn't of been slashed by that sword.

It would've been better had I stayed in the Abyss. That way...

Heh... Elliot was right. I'm just saving myself. But what is there to value in myself? I'm disgusting.

Filth, as Father said. The filth of the world. 

gil;

I'm sorry. For everything. 

jack;

We should talk sometime. It's been a while, hasn't it? 

ukitake;

I still have the books I borrowed. I had fun reading them, but you can have them back if you want. We should meet up again sometime. And let's try not to get lost~. 

colette;

Can... we meet up somewhere? Now that you're back to normal and not brainwashed. I'll treat you, t-that is if you don't mind!

[ oz is quietly thinking to himself near the lake. you'll probably notice he lost the "omgsohappy" air around him but if someone is to point that out, he'll instantly put on his facade. maybe. bother him to your hearts content ] 

[ as usual, bother him in person or via journal. doesn't matter /o/ ]

Comments

[ gil ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

Not at all! You did what you thought was right.

[ oz ]

[invokes.livejournal.com]

[ seriously still feels so bad for hitting oz. /CHOPS OFF HAND ]

I should've thought twice before doing that.

[ gil ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

[ at least look on the bright side-- oz is less likely to treat you how zai did. >| ]

...

Hey Gil~. You wouldn't fancy exploring? [ ♥ ]

[ oz ]

[invokes.livejournal.com]

[ WE DO NOT SPEAK OF THAT PERSON ]

To where?

[ gil ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

[ /ERASES IT FROM YOUR MEMORY ]

Any~where! It's a big castle after all.

[ oz ] SORRY... NOTIFS...

[invokes.livejournal.com]

Alright.

[ gil ] Saaaame 8( /kicks her email so damn hard

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

[ /brb kidnapping you wherever you are :) ]

[ oz ]

[invokes.livejournal.com]

[ totes doesn't mind because well... it's oz! his #1 best friend and precious master and entire world to him ]

Did you eat yet?

[ gil ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

[ food? what is this even ] Not yet~. But we can head to the Kitchen!

[ oz ]

[invokes.livejournal.com]

I'll make something.

[ gil ] 1/2

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

Ah, you don't have to--

[ gil ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

You really haven't changed at all.

[ oz ]

[invokes.livejournal.com]

I...

[ gil doesn't feel exactly the same or maybe he's always been different. it's confusing, the past, the present... what lies ahead in the future.

but...

right now everything feels all right ]

[ oz ]

[invokes.livejournal.com]

[ smiles ]

Let's go, shall we?

[ gil ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

Already ahead of you!

[ he'll be walking in front in an almost confident stride before spinning around only to deliver a bright grin. let's not waste precious time fail servant ♥ ]

[ oz ]

[invokes.livejournal.com]

[ follows him, with his own rare smile showing on his face ]

What would you like to eat?

[ gil ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

[ is...distracted...by...technology... :/ ]

...Eh? I'm fine with anything~.

[ oz ]

[invokes.livejournal.com]

[ blinks and turns his head at oz, wondering what oz is distracted by ]

What is it?

[ gil ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

[ curiosity killed the cat but in this case, curiosity could shock the blonde heir if he isn't careful. or break something ]

U-uwa?! [ presses random buttons on the microwave! ]

er... kitchen filter forever

[invokes.livejournal.com]

[ looks over at the microwave ]

That's a micro...wave. Everyone uses it for food but I don't know how to use it.

kitchen filter forever

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

Eh? They could just cook the food though!

[invokes.livejournal.com]

[ shakes his head ]

I always see them using it-- I guess it helps prepare? [ eyes microwave... does not trust it ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

[ is so going to check this out. if he dies, know he loved you ]

Then let's use it if it helps~.

[invokes.livejournal.com]

Alright... [ takes a coffee mug with some coffee still inside and puts it inside the microwave ]

I've seen someone do this.

[ stares... at those buttons ]






















Now what?

akdjfks, bed now. college tomorrow post... WHEN I CAN /sleeps

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

[ staring at the buttons forever with an awkward silence following behind ]


...


Maybe it's this button! [ presses the button of doom ]