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[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

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Over and over again... 

I just keep on hurting him. I'm so stupid, so pathetic. No matter how hard I try, I keep on repeating the same mistake. Alice, Gil, Break... I hurt them all. Maybe, just maybe, my existence is a sin. Just by existing, I scar people. It's my fault he has that scar... if only I'd struck a little earlier, Gil's chest wouldn't of been slashed by that sword.

It would've been better had I stayed in the Abyss. That way...

Heh... Elliot was right. I'm just saving myself. But what is there to value in myself? I'm disgusting.

Filth, as Father said. The filth of the world. 

gil;

I'm sorry. For everything. 

jack;

We should talk sometime. It's been a while, hasn't it? 

ukitake;

I still have the books I borrowed. I had fun reading them, but you can have them back if you want. We should meet up again sometime. And let's try not to get lost~. 

colette;

Can... we meet up somewhere? Now that you're back to normal and not brainwashed. I'll treat you, t-that is if you don't mind!

[ oz is quietly thinking to himself near the lake. you'll probably notice he lost the "omgsohappy" air around him but if someone is to point that out, he'll instantly put on his facade. maybe. bother him to your hearts content ] 

[ as usual, bother him in person or via journal. doesn't matter /o/ ]

Comments

Oz

[thirteenth.livejournal.com]

Aa. Thank you. You're welcome to drop by any time.

[ ukitake ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

You're welcome.

[ ... ]

Mm, I'll make sure to pay you a visit sometime in the future.

Oz

[thirteenth.livejournal.com]

Are you alright... with everything that has happened recently?

[ ukitake ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

Of course I am. Besides, it's not like I'm not use to the oddities of the world.

Oz

[thirteenth.livejournal.com]

...I'm pleased to hear it.

[ ukitake ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

[ he is actually kind of relieved his lie was believable. phew. ]

How have you been handling it? I hope nobody close to you got brainwashed...

Oz

[thirteenth.livejournal.com]

I was myself, I'm afraid.

[ ukitake ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

At least you're back to your senses now. I was lucky.

Oz

[thirteenth.livejournal.com]

I imagine it must have been harder in a way for those left behind.

Oz

[apologeticangel.livejournal.com]

Oh, yes that sounds like so much fun! Is there anywhere you'd like to go?

[ colette ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

Not particularly~. But then again, I suppose going somewhere in Town doesn't hurt. You see, I'm not quite accustomed to here yet so I don't know that many places.

[Oz]

[apologeticangel.livejournal.com]

Ah, if you'd like, there is a place called a 'soda parlor'! They have these wonderfully fizzy drinks called sodas, and they come in many different flavors.

[ colette ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

Uwah, that sounds amazing! I bet they taste really nice too~.

Maybe afterward we can buy some candy?! [ /has a hopeless sweet tooth .__. ]

[Oz]

[apologeticangel.livejournal.com]

They are very yummy, I wish we had them in my world!

Okay, I can't wait.

[ colette ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

I can't wait to try them~.

I'll meet you outside your room, if you'd like?

[ oz ]

[invokes.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, too. You weren't hurt badly were you?

[ gil ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

Not at all! You did what you thought was right.

[ oz ]

[invokes.livejournal.com]

[ seriously still feels so bad for hitting oz. /CHOPS OFF HAND ]

I should've thought twice before doing that.

[ gil ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

[ at least look on the bright side-- oz is less likely to treat you how zai did. >| ]

...

Hey Gil~. You wouldn't fancy exploring? [ ♥ ]

[ oz ]

[invokes.livejournal.com]

[ WE DO NOT SPEAK OF THAT PERSON ]

To where?

[ gil ]

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

[ /ERASES IT FROM YOUR MEMORY ]

Any~where! It's a big castle after all.

[ oz ] SORRY... NOTIFS...

[invokes.livejournal.com]

Alright.

[ gil ] Saaaame 8( /kicks her email so damn hard

[deceivingbrat.livejournal.com]

[ /brb kidnapping you wherever you are :) ]

[ oz ]

[invokes.livejournal.com]

[ totes doesn't mind because well... it's oz! his #1 best friend and precious master and entire world to him ]

Did you eat yet?

ooc;

[invokes.livejournal.com]

AJKFHSKJ OH MY GOD I AM GOING TO PUNT LJ D