paradisalost | (no subject)

It looks like you were standing in front of a train. [thinks the people in the castle are weird]

[thinks she's some suicidal freak of nature, tries to hide how upset she's feeling]

No kidding.

[thinks she's suicidal, too]

Do you want to talk about it?

There's nothing to talk about.

Obviously there's something to talk about. It's a matter of you wanting to talk about it, though.

Right, okay. Because I can remember why exactly I'm throwing myself in front of a train or jumping off of a water tower, right? I couldn't talk about it even if I wanted to!

[taken aback alsj crazy bitch] I meant that you could rant about how it makes you feel. I understand how confused you probably are... it's frustrating not to remember or know the context of any of these pictures or videos.

I know that I'm just a stranger, but... we all are. To each other.

Isn't it obvious? I'm some sort of freak! I keep finding videos and pictures of me doing things that should kill me, but they don't! I'm some sort of suicidal manaiac and people keep finding my failed attempts all over the castle. Or maybe not all are failed attempts. There's a picture of me with my head sawed open. Maybe I do succeed.

How do you think I feel?

... I can't imagine how you feel, sorry.

But listen, you don't know the context of any of these. Don't start jumping to conclusions. I mean, something's not right if you kept surviving all of that. I'm sure you'll be able to piece together everything once you find more of your memories.

I'm sorry about not taking your memories seriously before. I really had no idea. [looks sympathetic alksd]

I'll help you look. If you're uncomfortable with other people seeing these, though-- [... feels so awkward, isn't sure what would be the proper way to react, but is really disturbed andlksdj and worried]

Edited 2009-09-12 13:20 (UTC)

[takes a deep breath. Then another. Just because her memories make her look like a crazy person doesn't mean she needs to act like one. Once she calms down, she shakes her head]

Sorry.

[forces up a smile]

How about a walk?

Sure. [offers a hand] Fresh air sounds like a good idea.

[hesitates, then slowly takes it. She's trying to show that she's not a psycho... or at least, that she doesn't want to be :/ ]

Maybe there's less clutter outside.

[pulls her in and picks her up] I don't think it's possible to hang pictures in the sky, anyway. [FLOATS, discovered these powers this morning; starts heading for the entrance]

And a break from all of this might do you some good.

[STIFFENS and nearly tries to push away when she realizes... they're floating]

What--[she stares at him, eyes wide]

How are you--? We're floating!

Yeah, I think I'm a superhero. [looks at her] It was actually easy to take in. [stays still in the air] If you're not comfortable with this, just tell me. I'll let you down.

A superhero? [would laugh if she wasn't seeing this for herself]

No, it's... okay. Just don't drop me something. [puts her arms around his neck]

You're in safe hands. [flies outside, into the sky, GLOWING GREEN AND SHIT]

I think all of this memory loss is temporary. Just hold out until it's over, okay?

[holds on tighter the higher they go--without being certain she's indestructible, she's a bit nervous... and glowing green wtf]

Is that how you're so calm? Thinking about it like that?

Edited 2009-09-12 14:09 (UTC)

That, and ... my memories are not all that bad. I have a cute girlfriend and I'm a superhero.

I feel pretty lucky. [looks at her sympathetically, feels bad that she's a weirdo]

Yeah, you are lucky. I'm glad someone has nice memories. [focuses on the scenery, whoooooa this is trippy]

[holds onto her tightly!] We all have nice memories. And bad ones. You'll find more nice ones soon, I promise.

That's a big thing to promise.

I know. But I'll make it happen. I'll search high... you search low.

[pauses, then laughs a friendly laugh... even if it's not entirely sincere, she's trying]

Very funny.

Sorry, can't resist.

[lands on the ground, not too far away from the castle] Everyone in that castle probably feels overwhelmed. [puts her down] I meant it when I said I'd help you.