paradisalost | twenty-fourth phase [ dictated ]

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kitty pryde (shadowcat)

twenty-fourth phase [ dictated ]

[ Everybody was gone. Everyone from home, anyway. It had been slowly coming for months but now she was all that was left. The last mutant. The last X-Man. And it sucked. In nine days she'd have been here for eight months. For most of that there'd been someone, a reason to actually keep doing everything that she did. She'd fought to keep the training going and to not give up. Now? Now she wanted to give up and she couldn't find a reason to not ]

I can walk through anything. Even here the only thing that's stopped me has been the Dead Zone. For every entrance there's an exit, even a hidden door. Maybe out further into the Dead Zone is where it's hiding and that's why we haven't found it - maybe it's further than we've been. I'd rather find it than wait to be picked off.

[ Galadriel ]
Hi.

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[And with that little bit before the filter, there is no way she doesn't realize that something's up.]

Kitty.

Hey. [ Normally she may be a little wittier, or chattier (her tone is certainly a little flatter than usual) but Galadriel's guess would be right. Something's up ]

[This would be cause for concern. Enough that she'll outright ask about it.]

What troubles you so, dear one?

[ She wasn't expecting that. Galadriel being forward? So new ]

How long have you been here?

It has been over half a year- seven months by your calender.

Has anyone from home been here? Except for Elrond.

There have been but two others in my time here: an ally and [briefest of pauses] my granddaughter.

I'm sorry.

You needn't be. I would gladly shoulder this burden alone, if I could spare those I love pain or sorrow.

How do you do it? [ Oh great and wise woman, share your teachings ]

[Are you sure? Her teachings are depressing.]

As I always have. I move forward because I must and because there is little else that may be done. I have seen many partings and I will see many more before the end; it is the nature of a life such as mine. I would I could tell you that they cease to bring pain, but I cannot. All I may say is that one grows more accustomed to bearing the weight and that the ache will dull with time.

[ But you're so wise ]

Growing accustomed to it doesn't sound any easier.

[And often melancholy. Did you miss that?]

I have scarce had a choice. [And her tone gets a little gentler] With partings here, we have, at least, the comfort that those for whom we care have been returned to their proper place. None of us belong here, truly.

[That's what she does to cope; she makes it not about her. Part of it is her natural concern for others. Part of it is that as a ruler and as a telepath, she's so used to hiding her emotions behind a mask, she can hardly help it. Whether that's healthy or not is up for debate.]

[ What if she likes it? It's certainly perspective putting? ]

What if what happens when they leave isn't a comforting thing and being here was better? [ Because when this place is good she prefers it here - all the good and none of the hate, or anything bad from home ]

[She's thought about this a great deal. It's not a safe world that her kith and kin returned to either, after all.]

Was it better? Truly?

When first she arrived here, my granddaughter spoke of our world as a tapestry; a single thread may seem insignificant, but remove it and the whole may unravel. We exist here on borrowed time; pleasant it may be, but, whatever our fates, we must return to them. There are things more important than comfort, and even safety. We all have our duties and our parts to play.

I do not mean to suggest, however, that you are wrong to mourn; the heart is moved as it wills and it is natural and well that you should fear for your friends and miss their companionship. [And, truth be told? Galadriel will miss these most recent departures a great deal as well.]

Better than the people you care about dying. [ Or having to kill them, in Logan's case ]

Fate kind of sucks. [ Especially if it's unchanging fate ]

[Gently:] Do you wish to speak of it?

It may. But it is not unchangeable. [She's rather certain of this.]

Would it help? [ She'd only told Logan so he knew where she was in the time line. Out of everything from home, all of the stories and the things that sounded amazing this was what she left off ]

At least there's no one here to know my future.

Perhaps. Knowledge carried alone may be a heavy burden. [This... is somewhat hypocritical of here, given how many secrets she has. But she carries the weight willingly.]

[ She'll just quietly thing for a minute. Or two ] Having powers isn't always that great. People are afraid.

That I know well. [She's feared just as much as she is loved.]

It's not just fear. I go to a special school to protect people like me but it doesn't always work.

You are not the first to tell me such things. Still, it pains my heart to hear of it.

Before I came here a lot of people died and the school nearly closed because of it. [ Because of one person, rather ]

And these are the conditions to which your friends have returned. [She can understand the feeling a little better, then.]

Kitty

Galadriel

Kitty forever

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