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#1- Heaven or Hell?

[He's finally figured out that you can speak into the book to talk to people, after looking at is suspiciously for a while, and even poking it with his foot, because he doesn't trust talking books, period. Even less after HYDRA, He was sure for a while that he'd ~~been captured by HYDRA again~~ been dreaming. But then he remembered that he fell off the train and was probably dead. Shit. Which means that this was...]

Okay, so... this is Heaven. Really, it's not all it was cracked up to be. No fluffy clouds or female angels. Unless this is Hell... Actually, it's probably Hell. I'm not nice enough to get into Heaven. If so, whoever decorated did a really swell job. Staring at these stone walls for the rest of eternity sounds like punishment enough for whatever sins I have.

So... what are you people in for?

[ooc: Wait until Tuesday? Riiiiiight.]

[ETA: I'm going to bed. If anybody tags I'll tag them tomorrow.]

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[Looking around for Steve, and has to double-take because...he's small again?]

Steve...?

[Steve turns around to face the source of the voice. he can't help smiling. This is literally the first time he's seen him in months since he can't even see Bucky in memories anymore.]

Bucky! [He's totally going in for a hug. No shame at all here. He just misses him.]

[He lets him hug him, still trying to process that Steve is tiny again.]

Uh... [He isn't quite sure how to say this...] Why are you small again?

[He's pulling back to give him yet another confused look.]

What do you mean again? I've always been this way. You know that.

Yeah, until you went and volunteered for that experiment that actually worked. Still haven't really forgiven you for that. What if you had actually died?

It's going to work? [He's excited. He knew it was a long shot but... and then the rest of it sinks in. Now Steve just looks guilty.]

Bucky, it was the only way I could get in. [He of all people should know how badly he wanted that.]

Yes, really well.

I know, I know. And you made up for it when you rescued me from being experimented on-[Might want to stop that sentence, Bucky.] Did I mention you get tall?

Experimented on? [Sorry he's going to focus on that.] Bucky.

[Start talking.]

...Yes, Steve? [He's going to be stubborn. He has pride, damn it.]

What aren't you telling me?

A lot of things, obviously.

I don't want to fight with you, Bucky. [He's just concerned.] You just got here and none of what you've been saying makes any sense.

You're talking about things that haven't happened.

Because maybe they've happened for me, and not for you. [That has to be it. It sounds completely strange, but that has to be it.]

So you're from my future and I'm from your past.

[It makes sense as crazy as it sounds. Steve exhales. Well. Just when he thought things couldn't get weirder.]

... And you think we died on a train.

I'm going to assume you weren't stupid enough to jump off after me. I fell. I couldn't hold on. And you... couldn't reach me. [Should he even be telling Steve this?]

[He doesn't even know what to say. They've been friends forever. It's not supposed to end that way.]

You could have made it.

You don't know that. You weren't even there. I died, Steve. I don't remember hitting the bottom of the ravine, though. Don't they say it's the fall that kills you? [He's trying to make a joke out of this, Steve. Try to play along.]

But I will be there. [And he lets him die. God. He can't play along with jokes knowing that.]

You can't just make a joke out of this, Bucky. You're telling me my best friend is dead.

I died saving you. Maybe you didn't need saving anymore... [Oh, that sounds a little bitter] But I don't regret it.

[He looks like someone punched him in the gut. That's worse than letting him die. Even after the procedure he still needed Bucky there to protect him.]

You're not supposed to die at all. We're supposed to fight together and go home.

That was the point of going through with the procedure. [Aside from proving himself which was something he couldn't recognize.]

No, the point was for you to be able to show everybody how great a person you are. If I have to die to make sure you do that, then I will.

You're worth more than me.

Don't say that. Where are you getting these ideas from? [He sounds both upset and frustrated.]

Thinking that you went to Hell? That I'm worth more than you? You're my friend and I know that wasn't easy. You never once threw it in my face that I'm like this and you always stuck up for me.

Don't tell me you're not a good person Bucky because it's just not true.

[Bucky laughs, and it's not a nice laugh.]

Steve, compared to you, I'm nothing. You're the better man, always have been, always will. That serum, it just made everybody else realize it. And I'm glad, that it did, that I just faded into the background.

Bucky you could never be part of the background. I'm sorry you feel that way but, I don't. Nothing you say is going to make me think you're less.

[Bucky pinches the bridge of his nose.]

Look, I shouldn't be taking this out on you. Maybe it's because I'm a bit bitter than you don't need me anymore. You rescued me. You know how backwards that is?

and ever~

we're going to pretend i have smiling icons for this. xD

and this requires a soulful!gaze icon

fff

their rad bromance cannot be denied

no no it cannot

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