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[payback.livejournal.com]

Mother... Father. It's been so long since I've burned incense for you. Did you think I'd forgotten?

I can't sit at your graves any more... but. You'll never pass from my mind. There's plenty of time here, too. I'll hold memorial for you regularly from now on, I swear.

It's hard being here. This place dulls my holy fire. I won't allow it to overcome me.

Hmm... at home, the weather would have turned cooler by now. Snow would be on the peaks... I miss rain and wind. I didn't think I would.

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[thatlittlepest.livejournal.com]

Yeah, you're crazy.

[payback.livejournal.com]

I'm not! I just like things to be real. Real places have bad weather sometimes.

[thatlittlepest.livejournal.com]

You like freezing? Cold's not nice, Rin.

[payback.livejournal.com]

I don't like it, but at least it makes sense. What kind of a place never has anything like that?

[thatlittlepest.livejournal.com]

We're in a castle that makes magic food and you worry about the weather?

[payback.livejournal.com]

I worry about everything! It's just weird, is all.

[recordhistory.livejournal.com]

There's gotta be some rain sometime, right?

[payback.livejournal.com]

I don't know - maybe people are exaggerating. From what I've heard, it doesn't, generally. And it seems very green around here for that.

[recordhistory.livejournal.com]

Huh, maybe it just rains whenever nobody's looking. This place is full of weird surprises...

[payback.livejournal.com]

There's the lake, I suppose - the water could all be underground. But doesn't it seem as though it should rain sometimes? At least a cloudy day.

If you'll pardon my asking, how long have you been here?

[recordhistory.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah, guess so... Well, normal places would've had some different weather sometime.

Me? Probably about two months pretty soon. This time round, anyway. You?

[payback.livejournal.com]

Hmm, yes. This is such a soft place. Cloying.

As for me... almost three months? It's gone by quickly.

You've been here before?

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[recordhistory.livejournal.com]

Soft?

[recordhistory.livejournal.com]

Yeah, looks like it, but I forgot all of that when I got dragged back here after a while this time round.

[payback.livejournal.com]

Soft... I mean... there's no struggle here. I've heard that the castle toys with us, sometimes, but the only strife that seems to appear is brought by some of those who live here. I haven't seen any real troubles in the village.

Even us! We wish for food, or whatever we desire, and it's given to us. All these things. And yet, the important things - what we were forced to leave behind - remain out of reach. It's maddening. Cruel.

...excuse my manners. My name is Rin.

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[recordhistory.livejournal.com]

You got a point there. Not sure getting all that makes up for getting something taken away in the first place, either.

[recordhistory.livejournal.com]

S'okay~ Rin, huh? I'm Ravi.

[payback.livejournal.com]

It's good to meet you. Even considering the circumstances.

And no, I don't think being fed and sheltered makes up for the loss at all. I'd take struggling for my meal and my shelter every day over not knowing what's becoming of the people who were important to me at home.

[recordhistory.livejournal.com]

Yup, same goes for you.

Most people around here gotta be thinking the same thing, I bet. Everybody's gotta have things they wanna get back to, right?

[payback.livejournal.com]

I don't know - some seem as though they've become mostly resigned to it. I suppose if it doesn't make any difference in the long run, and no one controls when they go or return, why should it matter...? But... I can't just put away the cares I had at home.

And you, if I may ask? How do you feel about being here?

[recordhistory.livejournal.com]

Well, looking at it like that, I guess that'd be easier for 'em. Not sure I'd wanna risk getting shoved in and out of a place over and over again, though.

But it's not all bad being here, all the time. Not so great, in some ways, sure, but it's been pretty interesting so far.

[payback.livejournal.com]

I suppose it is. And I don't begrudge anyone coping with this place in their own way. It's just... hard, with the way time passes here, people coming and going without warning. Which I suppose isn't so unlike the real world, really, but still.

...You're right. It is interesting. I suppose the thing to do is make the best of a bad situation. And if you've been here before, and returned several times, and forgotten each time... I suppose that if I do end up going home, I won't remember this place, or anything I gain from being here. Although I suppose there are other benefits to be found, maybe.