paradisalost | (no subject)

Third time's the charm?

It's stupid because we're not supposed to be here. I shouldn't be happy that someone comes back. It was stupid to want him to come back, because he's supposed to be off in his own world and living his life. Even if it might not be safe.

I shouldn't read other people's conversations. Even if it's not filtered. It's too weird. I have my own stuff to deal with. I don't even know where to start or if I should just leave it alone.

I wanted dad to be here. I thought that maybe things would be better if he were around. Things weren't. Things were worse. This place isn't good. It's not safe. It probably wants us to think it is so it can laugh when someone leaves or gets murdered.

I need to stop dumping my problems on other people. That can be my resolution, I guess.