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[daemon-koenig.livejournal.com]

I uh...

I was just, wondering if..anyone knows that their loss was another person, do you want them to come here, so you can see what you're missing, or do want them to stay away?

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[blockoutnoise.livejournal.com]

...I'd want to meet them.

[daemon-koenig.livejournal.com]

Yeah? Why?

[blockoutnoise.livejournal.com]

They helped me learn how to trust.

[daemon-koenig.livejournal.com]

Oh!

I could see why then. But you don't think it might be too awkward?

[blockoutnoise.livejournal.com]

It is a little awkward, they know about me, but I can't remember anything about them. But [pause, still a little hard to say] friendship's are kinda awkward to me either way.

[daemon-koenig.livejournal.com]

That's why I would think it was too awkward..And then they might be mad at you for forgetting, even if it's not really your fault. Or maybe..you won't even like them as much.

..Oh. Well, how come?

[blockoutnoise.livejournal.com]

I think they understand. It's not like I haven't had memories taken before.

...Because I used to block everyone out.

[daemon-koenig.livejournal.com]

Before? Like..at home? Or were you at Paradisa before?

But why? Isn't it better to have friends?

[blockoutnoise.livejournal.com]

At home.

Before I met them I thought that the only thing that came from friendship was pain. So I didn't want to let anyone in.

[this person;]

[commonerstyle.livejournal.com]

Would I want them to come here and see them while I have no memory of them? Mm... probably not. Definitely not.

[also this person;]

[daemon-koenig.livejournal.com]

Not even if they were your friend?

[this person;]

[commonerstyle.livejournal.com]

No matter who they are. It would be like touching your fingers to a frosted window and looking in. But just that. Just glass, between you and them. Seeing and reaching out, but never really grasping.

[this person;]

[daemon-koenig.livejournal.com]

I don't really know if I understand that..

I mean, I guess it could be awkward 'cause they know stuff about you, but wouldn't it be more like starting over rather than pointless?

[this person;]

[commonerstyle.livejournal.com]

It's not that it would be pointless... but something would always be missing, you know? Something just within your reach, but never close enough to touch.

Did you forget someone, too?

[this person;]

[daemon-koenig.livejournal.com]

Yeah...It would be different, and..Uneven, I guess. Still, it could be nice? Well, if you were alone from your world maybe.

..Yeah. My family.

[this person;]

[commonerstyle.livejournal.com]

Uneven is a good word for it. But... I'm not alone. I only realized my memory was messed up thanks to one of my friends from my world.

...your family... your whole family? I'm sorry to hear that.

Re: [this person;]

[daemon-koenig.livejournal.com]

That's good. It makes it easier when somethings familiar. That's how I found out too.

Yeah, among other things. It's okay, not you're fault. Other people say, I'll remember when I go home. That makes it a bit easier, knowing it's not forever.

[this person;]

[commonerstyle.livejournal.com]

[with henceforth lacking cheerfulness,] I agree-!

Yeah, that's what I was told, too. It does give you something to look forward to. But it's still a little tough to handle while you're here.

[abadgirl.livejournal.com]

I lost everyone, so fuck that. Anyone coming here would just shit things up and I'm pretty sure I don't want them to know me anyway.

[daemon-koenig.livejournal.com]

[Bliiiink at the language, thar]

...Why would they...mess things up? Maybe they'd make being here easier?

[abadgirl.livejournal.com]

Because as it is I don't remember a damn thing about their faces and names. So it's like I don't even know them. And besides, they probably don't want me as it is.

[daemon-koenig.livejournal.com]

But you could get to know them again, and maybe it would be better than it was at home?

And..Why wouldn't they want you?

[abadgirl.livejournal.com]

Nah.

Because I'm a bad, bad girl.

[misa-approves.livejournal.com]

Neither, I want to go home to them.

[dragonakira.livejournal.com]

I'd want him to come. I think he's the one that saved me and is also the reason I am the way I am.