The Fourteenth Wish; Fooled

[loving-light.livejournal.com]

[Private, Dictated;]

No, no, no... This isn't right-- What if it really was him? What if I'm seeing things-- what if... What if Athrun really shot him? Something's telling me it's true, but... I don't want to believe it. I don't want to believe that I said those things to them.

..

I wonder... if they'd forgive me if I did...?

[/Private;]

[Sora and Riku, Written;]

[Several starts, all crossed out or scribbled over. The only ones still barely legible look like they might have read 'sorry', 'cant believe myself', and 'wish this was over already'.]

[/Sora and Riku;]

[Axel, Dictated;]

... I-I think I messed up big time.

I wish I could come to see you, but... I don't think I'd be able to see you if I did.

[/Axel;]

Comments

Kairi;

[arsoning.livejournal.com]

I'm sure you didn't mess up, Princess. What's wrong?

...what do you mean?

Axel;

[loving-light.livejournal.com]

[This is Kairi painfully copying down all the things she said to the 'monsters']

Please don't tell anyone...

Kairi;

[arsoning.livejournal.com]

...why does it matter what you say to the monsters? They're, ah, monsters, you know.

Secret is safe with me.

Axel;

[loving-light.livejournal.com]

I-I don't... think they're monsters. They're terrifying, but...

What if it's just the castle? What if I said all of those things to Sora and Riku.

... It really sounded like him... when he was writing.


If I come to see you, you might look like one, too.

Kairi;

[arsoning.livejournal.com]

That... would be a bit of a problem, wouldn't it? But it's Sora and Riku and you three are the inseparable trio; they'd understand.

...I can wear a sheet over my head~

Axel;

[loving-light.livejournal.com]

But I was so horrible... Axel, Athrun shot Riku.

... That would make me laugh...

Re: Axel;

[arsoning.livejournal.com]

And Sora healed him. He already told me. Trust me, Princess, not a big deal, yeah?

That's the point. You shouldn't be so sad, you know.

Axel;

[loving-light.livejournal.com]

One of my best friends was shot trying to help me. Healed or not, I'm an idiot for letting it happen. For not seeing that it was them...

... If you come to find me... I don't want to go back to the castle until--[PAUSE FOR PAIN]--... U-Until that stops...

Kairi;

[arsoning.livejournal.com]

You're not an idiot. You didn't know it was them, it's just the castle at work again. Stop blaming yourself for something you obviously can't control.

And what if you end up seeing me as a monster like you see Riku and Sora?

Axel;

[loving-light.livejournal.com]

[Pause of sad.]

... I... I don't know...

Kairi;

[arsoning.livejournal.com]

...do you want me to come get you?

Axel;

[loving-light.livejournal.com]

I'm still with Athrun...

You might sound like a monster, too.

Kairi;

[arsoning.livejournal.com]

As long as he's looking after you.

Yeah, might.

Axel;

[loving-light.livejournal.com]

... I feel so horrible about this...

I want it to end.

Kairi;

[arsoning.livejournal.com]

Don't feel horrible about it; it's not your fault.

It will. These kinds of things never last here.

Axel;

[loving-light.livejournal.com]

I should... hope--[PAIN. DAMMIT.]

[wavered.livejournal.com]

[overhearing Kairi dictating]

I shot at somebody sneaking around earlier... I didn't get a good look at who it was, though.

Was it... somebody you knew?

[loving-light.livejournal.com]

[jumping a bit and turning to face him]

Athrun...

[She looks like she's trying not to cry.]

What did those people that we ran from last night... look like to you?

[wavered.livejournal.com]

[dictated slowly, catching on that something's amiss]

Two young men... maybe in their mid to late teens. One had long gray hair, and the other one had shaggy brown hair.

They were the ones who were after you, weren't they?

[Kairi;]

[silverstung.livejournal.com]

[just one thing is written in response to the mess.]

Please come home.

[loving-light.livejournal.com]

[Kairi's... crying now]

This is all the Castle's fault!!!

Those two... They aren't monsters, they're my closest friends... This castle's doing this to me-- I just...

[Riku;]

[loving-light.livejournal.com]

I

But what if you

I might

I'm sorry, but I can't.

[wavered.livejournal.com]

I-I'm sorry. I should have realized something was wrong.

Don't worry, I'm sure your friends will understand. It's all right.

[Kairi;]1/

[silverstung.livejournal.com]

I miss

We need

Kairi, look

[loving-light.livejournal.com]

Don't blame yourself for this... I can't thank you enough for helping me. None of this is your fault, alright?

I'm starting to worry less about them forgiving me... But more... 'Can I ever forgive myself for not seeing'?