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paradisalost2007-03-01 06:25 pm
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[Private to Allen]
Hn.
[Private to Kanda]
About the other day...I'm sorry.
[Private to Allen]
Hn. I assumed you understood, a bit.
[Private to Kanda]
I thought I did too.
[Private to Allen]
Hn.
[Private to Kanda]
[Private to Allen]
You all do.
What you said, do you really think that?
[Private to Kanda]
Not really. I was just angry, Kanda.
[Private to Allen]
Why? It's not like I said anything overly insulting from what I usually say.
[Private to Kanda]
Its...complicated.
[Private to Allen]
That's my line.
[Private to Kanda]
Heh, sorry I didn't realize only you were allowed to use it, Kanda.
[Private to Allen]
It's a way of avoiding a direct answer. It does not work on me. I'm waiting.
[Private to Kanda]
Well, I should be honest then. I think I was a little...jealous. I was a bit hurt at the fact that you seem concerned about Lae, but not about the other exorcists.
[Private to Allen]1/2
[Private to Allen]
Lae is...
[Private to Kanda]
[Private to Allen]
Different.
[Private to Kanda]
Heh, if I'm not allowed vague answers neither are you, Kanda.
How is he different?
[Private to Allen]
He...
Reminds me of Ravi.
[Private to Kanda]
Eh?! Really?
[Private to Allen]
A bit.
How things were before he forgot.
[Private to Kanda]
Maybe. You knew them both better than I did, Kanda.
[Private to Allen]
I wish I didn't.
But Lae saved my life and... he's never doubted me or-
[Private to Kanda]
Don't wish that, Kanda.
So you trust him? He seems like a good person.
[Private to Allen]
If someone important forgot you, wouldn't you?
Allen. Recall when the idiot lost his hammer?
[Private to Kanda]
...No. I'd just happy that they were still around.
Yes I do, Kanda. What about it?
[Private to Allen]
If they forget you, it's like they died at times.
I asked you to look after ...
[Private to Kanda]
[some scribbled out starts to sentences]
Ravi's not dead. It maybe that he lost his memories and its extrmely hard to deal with that, but its never like he died. I know that much.
You asked me to look after Ravi. I remember, Kanda.
[Private to Allen]
Not for you. They were important... those memories.
He's my... friend.
[Private to Kanda]
I know, I'm sorry, Kanda. Him forgetting all of us has been hardest on you because you knew him so well. I don't mean to make it sound like you haven't been hurt.
Its just...I know what its like to lose someone forever. And I know that it makes you want to do anything, just to see them again. Even for a moment.
I think I knew that, Kanda. And I made sure to protect him, just like I promised. Remember?
[Private to Allen]
...Sorry.
I know you did. Would I have asked if I didn't trust you? Or think you capable? With something as important as that. Would I?
Re: [Private to Allen]
...its okay. You didn't know.
No...I guess you wouldn't, Kanda.
[Private to Allen]
Well. Then there's your answer.
Maybe you're not, but I'm a destroyer, it's what I'm good at.
[Private to Kanda]
..Right.
We're all destroyers, Kanda. You're just...better at seeing the big picture than I am.
[Private to Allen]
You shouldn't think that.
[Private to Kanda]
Heh, don't worry. I haven't given up on my goal to save.
[Private to Allen]
You better not have, sprout.
[Private to Kanda]
Never, Kanda.