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[ex-subversiv319.livejournal.com]

A ball and a feast, oh my. The owners of this domain are certainly going out of their way for us. How very kind of them. (neatly drawn heart with an X through it)

And oh~ Saint Valentine's Day is comming soon, is it not? How wonderful! Why, if I was not an empty, hollow shell of cold blood and could comprehend emotion, I would almost be excited.

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[chris-thorndyke.livejournal.com]

Don't put yourself down like that. Everyone can be excited about Valentines Day!

[ex-subversiv319.livejournal.com]

...Ohoho. I do not think you understand. I cannot technically feel excited about this particular event because I, along with a select few other individuals, do not have a heart.

[chris-thorndyke.livejournal.com]

I can give you one. On Valentine's day I'll make you a big heart so you can have one for yourself! I'll work very hard on it!

[ex-subversiv319.livejournal.com]

Oh, that is very kind of you. (neatly drawn heart with an X through it) But I am afraid such a thing would do no good for me, for I doubt thrusting a paper heart into my chest and praying for completion will earn me the particular results I seek.

[chris-thorndyke.livejournal.com]

A heart? A real one? So you're a zombie? Oh, I know! You're one of the nice ghosts from around the castle. :D

[ex-subversiv319.livejournal.com]

...Actually, I think we are more closely related to zombies than we think. It's rather disgusting if one thinks about it.

No, no~! I am neither a zombie nor a ghost. I am a creature called a Nobody. We are not exactly common little things so it is not surprising you were not aware of us.

[trialbyillusion.livejournal.com]

Speak of the devil.

What a surprise to hear you're not enthusiastic for the upcoming holiday. Maybe you're the exception to the rule after everything you tried to do. Maybe punishment.

[ex-subversiv319.livejournal.com]

Hmph. 'Devil' indeed.

Unfortunately, I haven't any recollection of what you are talking about, though I have heard stories from our beloved companions who were blessed enough to retain memories of my "betrayal" or whatever it was I did. And punishment, VI? Hardly. Knowing me, I was most likely closer to completion than you and the rest of the Founders could have ever hoped to be.

[trialbyillusion.livejournal.com]

I'm sure, but your claim doesn't hold much weight when compared to the statistics. There are Nobodies here who are complete. Why are you not amongst their numbers?

[ex-subversiv319.livejournal.com]

Perhaps it does not, but rules were made to be broken and there are always exceptions. Some of our bretheren only think they are complete, simply because they have lost their memories of being one of us. I, for one, believe we are among the luckier ones, being aware of what we really are rather than suffering from incompletion and not knowing why.

[trialbyillusion.livejournal.com]

Wrong, XI, even I was granted what you were not. And I assure you I'm still very much aware of what I am or what I technically was.

[ex-subversiv319.livejournal.com]

I did not say all of us were as fortunate as you, VII, XII and myself. I said a small number of us were, and I perceive three to be a small number. Unlike us, VIII, II, III, and IX are unaware of what they really are despite thinking they are complete. Do be a dear and watch who you haphazardly throw the word 'wrong' at, VI.

[trialbyillusion.livejournal.com]

Still wrong.

When you're ready to come out of the darkness, XI, let me know.

[ex-subversiv319.livejournal.com]

With all due respect, VI, be a dear and kindly shut up. When you are done wallowing in your petulance, then let me know.

[trialbyillusion.livejournal.com]

You really should double-check whether you have a heart or not, Marluxia. That almost sounded angry. Good effort, I suppose.

[ex-subversiv319.livejournal.com]

In case you have forgotten, Zexion, I am incapable of being angry because, le gasp, le shock, le surprise! I have no heart, dear one. Perhaps because this place did not deem me worthy of one, or because you and our wonderful superiors were incapable of acquiring them for us as promised, or for some other reason entirely, the fact remains I lack a heart.

[trialbyillusion.livejournal.com]

And it wouldn't deem you worthy of one why? If you were so close to completion as you've insisted, why would it refuse you a heart?

[ex-subversiv319.livejournal.com]

Because that would be fair, Zexion, which is something life oftentimes is not. I have heard countless rumors that this world has a mind of its own and, if that is the case, I do not see why it would not use its own judgement to determine who among us deserves a heart and who does not. What constitutes as "deserving" is an entirely different matter, however, I am quite confident that I do not fall into that criteria.

[trialbyillusion.livejournal.com]

"Fair" would be debatable, as would "life" if you're still incomplete.

I don't believe this world has the ability to discriminate at that level unless the Superior was responsible for its construction.

[ex-subversiv319.livejournal.com]

Indeed they would be debatable, however, most individuals are able to come up with a generalized meaning for both that is usually similar to those around them, save several differences. And seeing as how we are a like "race", if you will, it is just as likely that our definitions of "fair" and "life" are more closely similar than others.

Indeed, and I doubt our dear Superior has the intelligence or manpower to create a world as vast as this. Regardless, I do not particularly care for what the reasons are for my being incomplete so much as the fact that this world devoured my memories, which I find to be just a tad more important at the moment, personally.

[trialbyillusion.livejournal.com]

A generalized meaning based on the relativity of our race is inconceivable, at least in the case of the former of your examples. "Life" is fact-based, "fair" is strictly opinion. What my technical race is has no bearing on how I interpret your actions at Castle Oblivion. To be what I deem "fair", I won't reference them since a memory you do not possess would not serve to prove my point.

You've too often underestimated the Superior, but I still believe it's shameful for members of the same Organization to be fighting at all. On that note, I hope you're able to reclaim what you've lost. However, provided that there may be little to no actual Organization left and therefore no basis for forced sympathy, I hope your memories only return to you once you've learned some humility or at least how to stop peppering your sentences with the term "dear".

[rainbowgear.livejournal.com]

Oh dear, I'm very sorry to hear you have no emotions. Maybe I can help? It might be nice for a day to feel again, and I'm able to do that much.