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Goddamn. A boyfriend. Engaged.

My own personal reaction? Not much more than disappointment. 'Cause I didn't actually expect any crazy miracle to happen anyway. I'm not Gain. I just don't get people like he does. But for the love of--

I feel like I should say something about it. But the only thing I can think of is, "Jeez, I saw a soap opera like this once." And how would that help? It wouldn't, that's how. This isn't the time.

I thought about talking to her, but she probably doesn't want to talk to anyone right now. Or maybe she does, but why talk to me? And what would I say, "Oh, yeah, sorry about your boyfriend being crazy and all that"?

It was fine. She's a friend despite everything, I was pretty sure.

Damn it.

What would Gain do...?

...

I have no idea what Gain would do. Like hell I'm gonna try and explain this to him, though. Can barely explain it to myself.

Maybe I'll just sneak a some fish to eat from the kitchen and hope he doesn't notice. Haven't had fish in weeks.

Should also start asking around about the whole amnesia thing. There's gotta be someone around that could at least give a hint or something. I'm tired of this, I just wanna know... But... Have no idea how to start asking about this stuff.

...

Man, I really suck at this.