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[lost-science.livejournal.com]

[A large ink splotch obscures the first few words.]

Damnit.

I need a drink. Not that it would help my roaring headache. I still need a drink.


I'm surprised I don't need surgery. What the hell happened? There was.. an experiment. Always another bloody experiement [Too crossed out to be read.]

It went wrong. At least, I think it did. I can only assume so, because this room is most certainly not where I started.

This room. It is as beautiful as the best Radiant Garden could offer, perhaps better. But how?


The other apprentices. I must try and find them. Xehanort can burn in hell for all I care [Only partially crossed out; still legible.]

Braig. One of the few decent men.. I only hope I can find him.


But Ienzo, Elaeus, Even... I wonder if they live.


I always believed we were on a path to hell. Instead I have found myself in some form of paradise.


I don't believe it for a second.



I'm not willing to give up the goal we worked so hard for.

Braig lost his eye for this. I will not stop. I will unlock the secret of Kingdom Hearts.

But I'll need new subjects. A laboratory.

And a way of making people vanish.

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[dearweatherby.livejournal.com]

Perhaps you aught to read my poem!

You seem befuddled and sad.

[lost-science.livejournal.com]

... poem? What are you- [a jotted ink line trails off]


... ah. That poem. It was, ah ... if nothing else, an attempt. Also awful.


Sad? No. Befuddled? Possibly.

Who are you?

[dearweatherby.livejournal.com]

I...I am Governor Weatherby Swann!

And I do beg your pardon?

[lost-science.livejournal.com]

... Governor? Of what, this castle? Surely you can't--

[There are several scratched out lines.]

Forgive me, governor. As you said, I am befuddled.. I mean no offense.


Beg my pardon? For what?

[dearweatherby.livejournal.com]

But of course I am the Governor!

-Surely this castle was in Port Royale?-

It is quite alright. ... And... for insulting my lovely poem, sir!

[lost-science.livejournal.com]

.. right. Of course. Forgive my doubt.


Ah. Did I? I believe I was mistakenly reading something else. My deepest apologies. It is.. an.. inspiring piece of work.

[frozen-science.livejournal.com]

...Those names.

Just who do you think you are?

Who-...



[[ooc; too early? I can delete it >83]]

[lost-science.livejournal.com]

.. I am Dilan.

You seem.. shocked. Who are you?

... you seem .. familiar. .. Strangely so...

[frozen-science.livejournal.com]

...Did you say Dilan?

I-

What game is this?

Who are you really!?

Xaldin..?

[lost-science.livejournal.com]

.. Yes.

.. This is not a game. My name is Dilan.

I can only wonder why you would accuse me of playing a game at all. I know nothing; I am in no position to play games with anyone.

I do not know a Xaldin.

[frozen-science.livejournal.com]

This isn't possible...It isn't logical at all!

Time.

Yes. Everyone is disoriented upon arriving here.
I'm sure it will just take time...

You can't still be somebody..

[lost-science.livejournal.com]

[There are several violently crosses out lines.]

WHAT isn't logical?!

Who. Are. You.

And why - WHY - do you look like Even?

You are not him.


... how could I not be somebody? I can't be nobody. If I were no one then I wouldn't exist, would I.

[frozen-science.livejournal.com]

I am Nobody! And I exist!

You really can't remember?
Then...perhaps it was what was taken from you.
This is...unfortunate.

My name is not 'Even'.
It hasn't been ever since 'Even' lost himself to the darkness.

My name is Vexen, Organization XIII member Number IV.

I am what happened...when that fool lost his heart.

[lost-science.livejournal.com]

.... I...




Remember....? We.. I... we were drawing close. Xehanort.. that stupid idiot, he kept saying how soon, we would unlock the door.. no matter what Ansem did or thought.

He'd said he was going to put his final experiment into motion ... "soon."

If it happened, I never...

never saw it.

.. what's going on here? How can you... oh lord. Even. You... so it was true. The theories we kept throwing around.. what might happen if and when we unlocked the secret. You lost your heart.

God, I should have known. I should have listened all along to what my heart was telling me. God.. goddamnit, Even Vexen.


But .. I don't understand. You ... you must come from what would be the future for me. How is that... possible?


Nobody? Organization XIII? I just. I just wanted to find Braig. I have no idea...

[ink splotches. a crossed out line.]

[frozen-science.livejournal.com]

I don't know. It doesn't make any sense...

Are you telling me...So you really do still have your heart..?

-a frustrated/tired sigh-

Yes. 'Nobodies'. What I am now, for example. What you should be, for another. The six of us, the...apprentices, and the Superior, we formed the Organization and gradually took in others. There were thirteen of us in the end, as the name may suggest.

Braig?
Xal- Dilan...His name is Xigbar now.
Organization Member Number II: Xigbar the 'Freeshooter'...


[[typo? what typo? >.>]]

[lost-science.livejournal.com]

.. I never lost it. I was transported here.. before.. whatever event took place that robbed you all of yours.

... What you are. .. What are you..? How do you live without a heart? Losing one's heart to the darkness... we experimented with that endlessly! Every subject who had their heart stolen vanished, their heart became a Heartless. So what on earth are you..?

... Others? With.. with what-- Wait. A better question would be: Superior?

..

... are the others here? How many? Does.. Xigbar. God, does he remember?

[frozen-science.livejournal.com]

I could have sworn- It's of no consequence. There's nothing that we can do, at the moment.

I'm Nobody. -slightly cruel smile-
Whenever a heart is lost, two things are created - Heartless, and Nobody. The Heartless are supposed to contain the heart of the person...And the Nobody is...Well, if you must call it anything, it is the person's "soul". A byproduct, if you will...We had strong hearts, apparently, so we were able to keep these forms...

Yes, the Superior. For your benefit perhaps I should have said Xehanort's Nobody.

Yes, Braig as well. And myself. And 'Ienzo' too. All of us...except, it seems, you.

Xigbar may be here, but I have not spoken with him. Likewise with Zexion.

Are you beginning to understand?

[lost-science.livejournal.com]

More than I had ever wished to.


I cannot believe what fools we are were.

If a Nobody is created at the same moment as a Heartless, how did we go so long in our experiements with no record or evidence or it happening?

.... XEHANORT? That little. HE's your superior..?

...

I'M GOING TO KILL HIM! I am going to wring his BASTARD NECK.

IS HE [Ink splotches. The paper is ripped in several places. Slightly below:] HERE?!

[frozen-science.livejournal.com]

The hearts were not strong enough, I presume. It can't be expected of every being to desire to hold on as we do.

Yes, he is.
He led us in trying to recover what we had lost.
None of us were successful, the last I knew...
Then again I...Hn. I died before Zexion and Lexaeus both. You would have to inquire of them whether any further progress was made or not.

He isn't.
Restrain yourself, Dilan.

[lost-science.livejournal.com]

... as "you" do. I cannot be sure.

... he led you in trying to correct his own insane mistakes?

The hypocrisy. I hardly know what to say.

Wait. You.. died? How on.. then how are you here?


...

[Half the page is ripped clean away. In a corner:]

Forgive me. It was .. quite a shock.

[frozen-science.livejournal.com]

It was all our mistake, Dilan. Not just the Superior's.

...It's a long, long story.
Suffice to say, one of the neophyte members felt that I was no longer of use in his little plans. He's here. I intend to deal with him myself...I'm not sure if the fact that he remembers no more than you do will make it more fulfilling or less...I do hope it's more though.

[lost-science.livejournal.com]

... I know.

It is easier to blame him, and the way he seemed to infect us with his idea until.. until it almost felt like my own.

I cannot believe we never realized our folly.


... "neophyte," you say? Who are these neophytes?

Not to be picky or anything, but: I cannot remember what I did not ever experience.

It is not that I lack memories. It is that I lack a future.

It is a very odd feeling.

[frozen-science.livejournal.com]

Yes, yes...

The neophytes, as we called them.
Numbers seven through thirteen.
Saïx....Axel...Demyx, Luxord...and so on and so forth.

Are you sure? Are you absolutely positive of your memories?
Hm...This is almost as if the past is laughing at me.

[lost-science.livejournal.com]

.. Thirteen, all told. Why that number? Was there some significance to it?

.. ah. By the way you are emphasizing Axel's name, I'll assume.. yes. How many of these so-called "neophytes" are present here?


I'm as certain as I can be, Vexen. I would not lie about this, believe me. The last thing I remember is my experiment going wrong. Nothing "after" it. No losing my heart. Nothing. That is the last thing I know.

Zexion and I were discussing it... It is possible, perhaps, that I somehow regained my heart and also lost my memories. But if so, why did my memories return to that specific point? And how on earth did I get my heart back?


So many questions. Hah. Despite being one of Ansem's apprentices, I'm not sure I was ever really meant for science.

Ah well. I will find out, one way or another.

[frozen-science.livejournal.com]

No, no...

Presently?
Four...Five perhaps.
Why do you ask, Dilan?

Were you? I have yet to speak with Six myself. That is as likely as anything else, at this point. And we don't know, can't know. Perhaps we can find a way.

Yes, given time...


[[ooc; ack, sorry..but it's Vexy's bedtime and fm's time to read manga and nurse a headache. this entire thing is awesome though! XD ♥]]

[lost-science.livejournal.com]

.. really. No reason you stopped at thirteen. At all.

Pure curiosity, honestly. I find this all very interesting, in a macabre sort of way. These "neophytes"... it is obvious to me why this happened to the apprentices, but how did they come to this state?

Yes, for a time. Logic says his theory is sound... but I can't fight the gut feeling that I have never been this "Xaldin."

Time, yes. And information.