63 is time to stop

[tehoniongirl.livejournal.com]

[Jilly doesn't usually head up to the roof of the castle, but tonight's sky is too beautiful to pass up. She didn't bring her coat, so she's shivering slightly from the night's chill, but she has a mug of hot chocolate to keep her hands warm as she watches the streaks of light raining down from the sky]

It's been a long time since I saw a shooting star. Even back home, it's usually too bright in the city to see them.

...anybody else making wishes, tonight?

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[tehoniongirl.livejournal.com]

I don't think I remember this. Was this a long time ago?

[payback.livejournal.com]

It was my second summer here. Before your time, I guess.

[tehoniongirl.livejournal.com]

...It's hard to believe that, as long as I've been here, you've been here longer.

[payback.livejournal.com]

It's the longest time I've really been anywhere for a long time. Staying, I mean.

[tehoniongirl.livejournal.com]

You traveled a lot, back home.

Jilly;

[payback.livejournal.com]

[A filter for good measure.]

Two years, I'd been traveling. More or less.

Rin

[tehoniongirl.livejournal.com]

Having a place to call home...

I know it's not ideal, but...maybe it's not all bad, either?

Jilly;

[payback.livejournal.com]

Most of my unhappiness in Paradisa has been caused by other residents, I think. Not by the castle itself.

Rin

[tehoniongirl.livejournal.com]

...I'm so sorry, Rin.

Jilly;

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Joshua's gone. I'm sure you knew...

Rin

[tehoniongirl.livejournal.com]

I...saw the announcement.

...you okay?

Jilly;

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I kind of want to just forget him again.

Rin

[tehoniongirl.livejournal.com]

...I know it's hard. But...I'm not sure that would actually be better.

Jilly;

[payback.livejournal.com]

... I really loved him. And he didn't care at all.

Rin

[tehoniongirl.livejournal.com]

And it's not fair. Or right. But caring about someone, however hard...the wrong part of that decision wasn't on your end.

Jilly;

[payback.livejournal.com]

I was just... such a fool. I should've known better.

Rin

[tehoniongirl.livejournal.com]

[gently]

How could you? Love doesn't work that way.

Jilly;

[payback.livejournal.com]

If he ever comes back again I'm going to find someone to make me forget. I don't... want to go through this all again.

Rin

[tehoniongirl.livejournal.com]

[softly] Not going through it again might be the best reason not to forget. If you don't have your memories, you won't know what to avoid.

Jilly;

[payback.livejournal.com]

Who knows. Maybe it won't happen.

I just don't even want to have to... think about him. If he does come back.

Rin

[tehoniongirl.livejournal.com]

I know, but I don't think it works like that. This place isn't that big. Not really. You'd cross paths. And if he caught your attention before, there's no guarantee he wouldn't again. Unless you remember.

Jilly;

[payback.livejournal.com]

Well, if he does show up, maybe you can remind me not to bother.

Rin

[tehoniongirl.livejournal.com]

...Would you listen to me if I did?

Jilly;

[payback.livejournal.com]

... Maybe.

[A pause.]

I just hate knowing how... I failed.

[Guess who got left with a whole host of new mental issues...]

Rin

[tehoniongirl.livejournal.com]

Oh no...

[her voice is fervent] Rin...you didn't fail at all.