16 blueprints - moar frustrated dictation

[teds-up.livejournal.com]

Stupid. Freaking. CASTLE!

[If one person were sent home every time that phrase was used, then the castle would be undoubtedly empty by now. So what's it done this time that Ted feels a certain need to reiterate his contempt for his current residence?


Furious writing can be heard. Furious, because if Ted had been using the pencil properly and with some amount of delicacy, it'd be very unlikely that anyone except those with keen hearing would pick up the sounds. But no, this time, they ring sharp and clear through the air, the movements so rapid and harsh, one might have thought Ted was having a war with his paper.

They wouldn't have been entirely wrong.]

Ughn... rrrhhhh.... Come on!

[It's obvious that from his lowered tone, that this is one of many accidental recordings of the journal. Perhaps not completely accidental, however. After all, even to hear violent writing (sketching?) so clearly, the book had to be open very nearby, so Ted should be aware of its presence.

And then there's an angered crumpling of paper, a punctuated Augh! as Ted throws it across his room. His breath could be heard, and it was wavering with rage. But when Ted speaks again, there's a hard determination in his tone:]

You're not going to best me, you stupid excuse for a castle... No matter what it takes, I will start designing again. You can't beat passion like this. No. Nothing will snuff out my desire to create. I've been doing this since I was a kid. If you think a few months being design-blocked is going to stop something I've been doing for practically all my life, then you are sorely mistaken, Paradisa!

Puh... Paradisa... More like Helladisa...

Comments

[stalkershiki.livejournal.com]

Ohhh. [Yup. She understands this one.]

...Anything I can help with?

[teds-up.livejournal.com]

Uh, actually...

[is he actually gonna go through with this.........]

I was wondering if.. you knew of other peoples' losses?

[stalkershiki.livejournal.com]

Other peoples' losses? A little bit... I mean, I know a couple of people who have lost important memories as their loss. A good friend of mine, Rhyme, she lost her memories of the Reaper's Game... and since she comes from a point in time before we get her her entry fee back, she doesn't remember her brother, either. Um... I know that people have lost abilities that they've had, particularly supernatural ones... and then me, I lost the way I look... but you already knew that.

[teds-up.livejournal.com]

..Have you ever tried talking with her and seeing if you could get her to remember anything?

[stalkershiki.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I have. She doesn't. At all.

[teds-up.livejournal.com]

...There's gotta be something there. Something. I'm not letting myself believe that the castle-- that a structure made from bricks or marble or whatever-- can control us like this. Not anymore.

[stalkershiki.livejournal.com]

Ted... what happened? Because... fighting against the castle is kind of pointless, for the most part. I remember there's a guy around here somewhere who's trying to fight it, Dr. Horrible, but I'm not as good as him at fighting it, so... I mean, maybe there's a way, but for most of us, it's a pretty useless thing to do, you know?

[teds-up.livejournal.com]

Pointless? Useless?

C'mon, Shiki, listen to yourself! Fighting for what's yours-- fighting for something so important to you that it's practically apart of you-- there's nothing useless or pointless about that. I don't care how bleak the situation looks. Architecture is my life, and I'm not about to throw away my life just because I'm having a designer's block!

Artificially induced or not, I'm going to break through it.

[stalkershiki.livejournal.com]

Wow... you're totally right, Ted! I guess I really have been here a long time... you can totally do it! Do you know if there's anything you can do to relearn design or something?

[teds-up.livejournal.com]

I don't know if I've really forgotten it. I don't feel like I have-- more like, I've got this mental wall in my head, you know? And it's preventing me from getting to information that I know.

[stalkershiki.livejournal.com]

But it's still not something you can access, so maybe, to get around the castle's loss, you will have to relearn it. Like, if you originally learned it with the drawing part of your mind, you'll have to relearn it with math or something...

[teds-up.livejournal.com]

Huh... maybe. You think that'd work?

[He chews thoughtfully on his pencil, then writes down the idea on a piece of paper not attached to the godforsaken journal.]

Relearn with math... I'll have to try that. Thanks, Shiki.

[stalkershiki.livejournal.com]

Honestly, I have no idea if it'll work... I've never had to deal with that kind of loss before, so I don't know what it's like, exactly... but I suppose it's worth a try, right?

[teds-up.livejournal.com]

Hey, anything's worth a try. And your suggestion's got some solid logic to it.

...Of course, there's not much about Paradisa that's logical.

[stalkershiki.livejournal.com]

Haha, yeah, I noticed that... but I'm glad you'll give it a shot~