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[helynge.livejournal.com]

[Josh is currently trudging back into the castle, his journal tucked under one arm, a book with a solid black cover in his left hand, and more creepily, a dead bird in his right hand. He also looks like he hasn't really slept or eaten in a few days.

As soon as he's in he'll wobble over to a couch and collapse in it, before laying the journal open next to him and staring intently at the dead bird for a few moments. Then he'll flip open to a page he has bookmarked and read a passage just as intently.

With a deep breath he'll put the book down next to the journal and hold the bird in both hands before that healing glow of his starts up.

Several moments will pass and nothing will happen.

The bird is still dead, and Josh has failed.]

Fuck. Dammit why?

[He'll let the bird drop to the floor and bury his face in his hands... which is just a little disturbing since he was just holding a dead bird and he clearly didn't wash his hands before doing that.]

What the hell is wrong with me? I can fix every stupid cut the people in the city have, and I can't fix this one fucking bird.

((OOC. Eris'd))

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[batfail.livejournal.com]

Oh, no. You are not walking away from me, mister.

[STOMPING AFTER.]

[helynge.livejournal.com]

[YES HE IS! Walk walk walk. He keeps glancing around him looking for any signs of DEATH]

[batfail.livejournal.com]

[FINE. Reaching for his arm, then.]

You need to stop.

[helynge.livejournal.com]

[Why do you keep doing this to him, Steph? WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO STOP HIM?]

I can't.

[batfail.livejournal.com]

[BECAUSE SHINY GOLD FRIEND IS TOUCHING NASTY DEAD BIRDS.]

When people die here, their bodies disappear, Josh.

[helynge.livejournal.com]

Just the people of the castle, and that's not even instantaneous. There's a small window of opportunity to save them before they do.

[batfail.livejournal.com]

And what then? Are you going to try to get super speed? You can't be everywhere. What you do is enough.

[helynge.livejournal.com]

[a beat he's actually sitting there considering it.]

Maybe... Maybe I can. If there is anyone else in the castle with superspeed if I can copy whatever is in their DNA that makes them that way, maybe I could alter my own...

[batfail.livejournal.com]

You're obsessed.

[helynge.livejournal.com]

What?

[batfail.livejournal.com]

With this. The healing. The saving.

[helynge.livejournal.com]

I...

Maybe? Does it really matter?

[Trying to turn around and go]

[batfail.livejournal.com]

You're making me worry. [PLAYS THAT CARD]

[helynge.livejournal.com]

[TOO CRAYCRAY TO GIVE A DAMN]

You should worry about those other people more. They're the ones that will suffer if I can't work this out.

[batfail.livejournal.com]

[DAMMIT]

Look, Josh, if you drive yourself crazy over this, you won't be able to help anyone at ALL. You'll be useless.

[helynge.livejournal.com]

I'm not going to drive myself crazy.

[batfail.livejournal.com]

You're toting around dead birds.

[helynge.livejournal.com]

That's not crazy, that's just... necessary. If I can't bring back a bird, I won't be able to bring back a person.

[batfail.livejournal.com]

They're coming back tomorrow.

[helynge.livejournal.com]

Yeah, this time. What about next time? And the time after that? What about the people who are dead back in their worlds? Or the people in the city that don't have the same benefits as the rest of us?

[batfail.livejournal.com]

I understand where you're coming from. I really do. But the way you're going about it is wrong. You need to calm down.

[helynge.livejournal.com]

I don't have time to calm down. How soon until the next person is killed? It happens all the time here, even in a place as small as Paradisa. It just...

[batfail.livejournal.com]

I know, I know. [Shushing like a babby... :| ] But rushing into this is just going to guarantee that you mess it up.

[helynge.livejournal.com]

[Hush little Joshy don't say a word, Stephy's gonna by you some more sanity?]

You don't know that.

[batfail.livejournal.com]

You haven't been successful so far, have you?