43 -- Falling

[so-catless.livejournal.com]

[she really thought she knew what she was going to say, and the words were just going to come right out. Instead, she ends up doodling leaf shapes in her journal for a while, until she's used each of her crayon colors]


[filtered to Mat]

[finally, she sighs. Saying anything still seems too hard. So she'll just write a little note--]

I'm sorry.
  --Sakaki

[/filter]

[she almost shuts her journal, but one more filter comes to mind]

[filtered to Lorne]

[written, again]

I hope you made it through school alright.

[a few other things come to her mind, but she sets her pen down instead.]

[/filter]

...At least it's pretty, this time.

Comments

[Sakaki]

[mysticalvender.livejournal.com]

Oh hey, those leaves are pretty.

I sure did, how about you? [Still has NO IDEA]

[Lorne]

[so-catless.livejournal.com]

[too bad her usual stoicism, and her 'I'm ticked off at you' stoicism seems like pretty much the same thing]

I got locked in a closet.

[Sakaki]

[mysticalvender.livejournal.com]

[And without her nearby, he can't cheat and use his empathy to tell ;;]

By...the possessed people?

[Lorne]

[so-catless.livejournal.com]

No.

[Sakaki]

[mysticalvender.livejournal.com]

Ohhhhkay, Pudding Cup, you lost me.

[Lorne]

[so-catless.livejournal.com]

I was infected.

[Sakaki]

[mysticalvender.livejournal.com]

[Oh snap]

Whahooozits?

You were?

[Lorne]

[so-catless.livejournal.com]

...Yes.

[frowning now]

[Sakaki]

[mysticalvender.livejournal.com]

Hooooo boy.

...Feeling kinda stupid now.

[Lorne]

[so-catless.livejournal.com]

For a few days.

[all that shopping, all that chattiness, all that asking to be brought to the hotel where she would be safe]

[Sakaki]

[mysticalvender.livejournal.com]

[Lamely]

I thought you were getting into the high school spirit.

[Lorne]

[so-catless.livejournal.com]

[she's quiet for a minute. It can be hard to tell with her, but there's a lot about this that she's really upset about]

...I'm sorry.

[Sakaki]

[mysticalvender.livejournal.com]

Nah, Honeybean, you've got nothing to be sorry for. I'm the one who did the screw up.

Any way I can make it up to you?

[Lorne]

[so-catless.livejournal.com]

But... I'm not really like that.

[and you were so happy with infected!Sakaki D:]

[Sakaki]

[mysticalvender.livejournal.com]

I know, Pumpkin, and there's nothing wrong with that.

[But he still loves yooou]

[Lorne]

[so-catless.livejournal.com]

[unconvinced]

Everyone was so happy about it.

[Sakaki]

[mysticalvender.livejournal.com]

We were just happy you were happy, Peach Pie. [Oh damn, there's no good way out of this]

[Lorne]

[so-catless.livejournal.com]

[no, there really isn't]

I wasn't me.

[Sakaki]

[mysticalvender.livejournal.com]

None of us love you any less because of that, you know? You're just fine the way you are, Peach Pie.

[Lorne]

[so-catless.livejournal.com]

Mmm. [probably still not convinced]

[even quieter, now] ...I attacked Mat.

[Sakaki]

[mysticalvender.livejournal.com]

No, Sweetheart, the alien inside you attacked Mat.

[Lorne]

[so-catless.livejournal.com]

It felt like me.


...At the hotel.

[Sakaki]

[mysticalvender.livejournal.com]

[Oh good lord, the guilt]

I'm sorry, Peach Pie. I put you into that situation when I should have known better.

[Lorne]

[so-catless.livejournal.com]

No one stopped me...

[Sakaki]

[mysticalvender.livejournal.com]

No one wants to attack their friend, Honey.