"And that is all you deserve," he replied, his voice muffled from holding back tears and from her hair covering him from showing it. He nuzzled closer, breathing deep to try and calm himself down, but no, his stern facade would not return to him in this situation and he felt his body get near limp as he held her, feeling tears run down his face as he hugged her, he hugged her. He hugged someone period, that in itself was something, and for it to first be his moirail was ...wonderful.
"The best..." He sighed, feeling himself choke a little, tears more generously flowing down his cheeks now. Who cared...it didn't matter, he didn't care if Nepeta saw him cry, if she saw him get flustered, listening to him say things he should be ever so embarrassed to say. he just wanted this to always be possible. But, he knew it wasn't.
Was it obvious to her? How much it bothered him that he could not hug her back? Or rather, do anything with her, instead of her with him? He always had to put so much concentration in anything he did, especially anything concerning people, or anything he could actually hurt. Only when working with his robotics could he stop thinking about how much force he put in what he was doing. But no, only now, in this place, could he actually partake in something so... important.
Sorry Nepeta, he wasn't going to let go right now, he couldn't, it was as if he was frozen in place, unable to move an inch from this perfect place. He didn't want to have to leave, he was okay with not having his strength. He'd gladly trade it for this feeling.
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"The best..." He sighed, feeling himself choke a little, tears more generously flowing down his cheeks now. Who cared...it didn't matter, he didn't care if Nepeta saw him cry, if she saw him get flustered, listening to him say things he should be ever so embarrassed to say. he just wanted this to always be possible. But, he knew it wasn't.
Was it obvious to her? How much it bothered him that he could not hug her back? Or rather, do anything with her, instead of her with him? He always had to put so much concentration in anything he did, especially anything concerning people, or anything he could actually hurt. Only when working with his robotics could he stop thinking about how much force he put in what he was doing. But no, only now, in this place, could he actually partake in something so... important.
Sorry Nepeta, he wasn't going to let go right now, he couldn't, it was as if he was frozen in place, unable to move an inch from this perfect place. He didn't want to have to leave, he was okay with not having his strength. He'd gladly trade it for this feeling.