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[arrowonthewind.livejournal.com]

[Today, Alleria is seeking refuge among the branches in the courtyard. Ordinarily, she finds pleasure in being outdoors, of course, but the mountains of leaves are not very conducive to taking thoughtful walks.

Instead, she sits high up in a tree, legs hanging off the edge of the limb, taking a whetstone to her sword. The journal lies open next to her, and it may pick up a few minutes of rhythmic scraping as she sharpens the blade in silence, mulling her words over before she speaks them aloud.

Tender emotions were not a thing that came easily to a Windrunner, after all.]

I have been here over a year, trapped in this place. I have seen allies and enemies alike come and go, and still others have stayed here, as I have.

I am sure this is a question that is asked frequently, but I still wonder: what is it that keeps some here, while others are expelled? Does the castle grow bored of us after a time? Does it give and take our loved ones so freely so as to make us hurt? Is it even capable of such sentience?

[A pause, and the scraping sound stops as she examines her blade.]

Will we ever get answers to these questions, or at the very least find someone who can give them to us?

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[hyuuga]

[Having been here for almost a year as well, those are questions Hinata has thought about too.]

Maybe one day we'll find those answers... Or so I'd like to think. Though I-I do hope we...that the castle doesn't give and take people freely just to cause us pain. I...I don't think it's quite that cruel.

[wornbright.livejournal.com]

Maybe there isn't a reason... but it's hard to tell. Sometimes, I think it's trying to teach us things but other times it doesn't seem right. Like when there's fighting.

[exanimatus.livejournal.com]

You may someday, if the outside world isn't a fabrication.

[arrowonthewind.livejournal.com]

[what] The "outside world" -- are you referring to the Dead Zone, or our home worlds?

[arrowonthewind.livejournal.com]

I've come to this conclusion as well. It does at times seem to want us to work together, but at other times it pits us against one another. Perhaps there is no pattern at all.

[arrowonthewind.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure which is more preferable. If it simply grows bored of us and discards us, then it does not think of us as having feelings. At least if it tries to cause us pain, it thinks of us as more than playthings.

[wornbright.livejournal.com]

Has anyone ever tried to ask the First Gens?

[arrowonthewind.livejournal.com]

I hear they aren't very open to conversation.

FILTERED AWAY FROM FIRST GENS, BAD GUYS, TATTLE TALES, ETC.

[wornbright.livejournal.com]

Some of them will talk if you ask nicely.

TRUE

[arrowonthewind.livejournal.com]

... is that so? Have you ever spoken to one?

[wornbright.livejournal.com]

Only twice. I promised not to bother them again, so they wouldn't feel scared.

[exanimatus.livejournal.com]

Ah, the second really would be a twist, wouldn't it?

But I meant the first. The world outside of the castle seems to hold more and more clues about this place's history, intentions...

[arrowonthewind.livejournal.com]

So they wouldn't -- that's very accommodating of you. [SARCASM ...]

But they gave you the answers you sought?

[arrowonthewind.livejournal.com]

As you say. But what clues we glean from our expeditions are far and inbetween. Nor does it help that those who live out there don't seem very willing to share.

[wornbright.livejournal.com]

I want to build trust with them. [ HEY, SHE MIGHT BOTHER SEYMOUR BUTTS AGAIN SOMEDAY. ]

Not exactly. But they did say they knew the other First Gens were going to trash the castle back in June.

[hyuuga]

Mm, I know.. Either way it isn't good for us. Toys, or as creatures here for a study in emotions instead of as people... So I-I guess neither is really preferable.

[exanimatus.livejournal.com]

And as I say again, what little we get is based on the idea that it isn't all some grand fabrication.

[arrowonthewind.livejournal.com]

[Seymour Butts .... really, Uru ...]

And did they tell you this after the fact?

[arrowonthewind.livejournal.com]

That's a very fatalistic worldview.

[arrowonthewind.livejournal.com]

It could always be worse, however. It could be overtly malicious towards us.

[wornbright.livejournal.com]

[ she didn't believe it okay ;_; ]

Yeah... I don't think they really cared.

[arrowonthewind.livejournal.com]

[GOOD ...]

That's not very surprising.

I do wonder how willing they would be to provide answers, though. Has anyone actually bothered to ask?

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[wornbright.livejournal.com]

There's actually a resident here who says he knows the reason we're in Paradisa.

[ paaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaause. ]

[wornbright.livejournal.com]

God...

[exanimatus.livejournal.com]

I like to stay open to possibilities.