[oh fuck, here it comes--the boulder lodged in his throat becomes too much to bear, and he looks aside as guilt and shame barrel full-force into his chest. He's not going to cry--not going to cry--]
I'm sorry--I'm so sorry--[his face is utterly stricken]--I tried, I thought I had her ...
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I'm sorry--I'm so sorry--[his face is utterly stricken]--I tried, I thought I had her ...
[oh god stop talking, just stop]
But she wasn't ... they ...