[bro ;( Spike's answer is a sad one... is this woman his loss? it's another brick in the wall of disdain for this place he used to love so much.

his sigh is a tired one. there are no efforts at upholding pretenses anymore. he's just... tired. worn down. at wit's end. sad, for everyone -- all the children, all their loved ones, everyone beat down and suffering and...

he tilts his head down]

...This isn't the last stop in the route your soul will take. I believe that much.

[fingers loosely grip the rosary hanging over his stomach]

But I believe you know, even if you can't remember her... you would have given your life up for so much as the whisper of a chance of saving hers. Wouldn't you?

[he would have done so a thousand times if it had spared Lilith. he made a promise not to lose anyone else... bro, surely you understand...]

That's the nature of unconditional love.