... [Had to go for the uncomfortable questions, didn't you? Spike didn't come out there to talk about himself, and he wouldn't unless he thinks it's the only way to change his mind. For someone like Abel, someone that's lived that long, it must be easy to lose some perspective on what it's like to die; you never come back quite the same as you left.]

If I did... [and if it wasn't just a dream...] I think she's dead now. I think it was my fault, and I think that's why I got myself killed.

But I can't remember exactly.

... My death didn't change anything. I might not even remember what she looked like, but I know she's not here. That's not the way things work.